My sore throat is getting worse and worse...and my brother is coming with his baby....o man.....I really don't know what is going to happen tommorow....I know my brother's wife is coming too, and that is what I worry about the most. To tell you the truth....I really don't want them to come...it is going to feel so weird.....I wish I didn't have to feel that way towards my own brother...but I just don't feel close to him anymore. Now that he has a baby...I feel more distant from him...I don't know what to do anymore...I don't know what is going to happen...and I am really scared...All that I want is to live a normal life, a life without discomfort, a life without feeling distant with one another. I just want to finally be a family. That is what I wish for the most...a family.